My deadly mental disease can it be cured?

I feel like a need a psychologist or some kind of mental coach. I am desparate. I am one of those people who have hardly any drive to do anything. My drive conflicts with my desire, my desires and drives are like to people in an argument. I am also unorganized. My life is developing into many things I've tried but gone nowhere with. Just a multitude of idiosyncracies that has abolished my reputation.